Down but not Out

Last week I caught myself wishing for a way to take some time off work so I could chip away at my growing to-do list. Well I guess I got what I wished for. A little mishap on the Tahoe slopes has put me out of commission for about 6 weeks. To be honest, I was devastated when it happened. All I could think about was that I would be missing out on running my first half marathon and forced to forego most of the snowboarding season. It's not the most ideal way to take a vacation, but I'm determined to make the best of it. Now that I've come to terms with the situation, I can focus on healing and accomplishing whatever I can during my unexpected hiatus. I'm so grateful for all the people in my life who have been more than helpful and supportive. I want to send a big hug and thanks to all of you.

Blogging, I miss you

(my sis and I after finishing the Palo Alto Moonlight 10k Race)

post to come later

Hey loves,

So sorry for being M.I.A. I've been attempting to find a happy medium between my new life as a responsible adult in the work force and having fun in between. So far I'm sad to report that I haven't been very successful. I've either been barely "making it" to the next day or feeling like I've been run over by a large truck. Everything else in my life seems to have taken a backseat to anything reminiscent of sleep. This includes everything I'd rather be doing, blogging being one of many. However, the one thing that has kept me sane throughout this process has been my daily runs. No matter how tired I am, it's something that I cannot end my day without. I treat it like another part of my hygiene routine- and compare it to the act of brushing my teeth. Like my running routine, I know I have to slowly integrate the things I love back into my life without letting the mundane beat of the daily grind get in the way. I'm going to add blogging to my hygiene regime and see how it goes. Like all things in life, I'm sure it'll get easier.

I bet a lot of you are thinking "oh cry me a river!" and you're right. I should do less crying and more doing.

So to all my working ladies- How do you do it? I'll take any advice I can get!

xoxo

My To-Do list

{via etsy: here & here}

Today I constructed a to-do list that was the length of a double roll of two-ply toilet paper. I miss the days when my list consisted mostly of lunch plans, coffee dates, and parties to attend. With everything going on, I take heart in knowing that I will get a little break after this week. My sister is coming to visit to me, and I plan to gift myself time to get back to enjoying all those things even for just a little while. For now, I throw a mini party in my head and do a happy dance every time I cross something off the list. It's what gets me through the day ;)

I've been a Bad Blogger

I admit, I've been a bad bad blogger. Since the beginning of this year, I hit the ground running and haven't stopped since. To say the least, the old daily grind has not been kind to me as I wake up each morning with bags under my eyes, thus feeling the urgent need to give myself a coffee IV. It makes me sad that I don't have the time to do all the things I used to. Baking and homemade dinners are now luxuries of the past, and blogging has taken a backseat to presentations, treatment plans, and term papers. With graduation on the horizon, I'm hoping to get my life back soon, so I can get back to doing the things I love most =)

Getting my Fix

{yesterday's fix @ yogurtland, it was good, but not as good as my regular}

oh oh oh, it's been one of "those" weeks again. You know the feeling when you wake up and things just don't feel quite right and you can't shake it for the rest of the day? Yep. that's been my deal. Despite feeling this way, I have to admit that my outlook has slowly shifted for the better over the past couple of weeks, and I think it can partly be attributed to this mindfulness counseling class I've been taking. It is here where I've learned to practice what they call a "lovingkindness" meditation. I have never been a meditation kind of gal, but this lovingkindness business has really been growing on me as of late. During meditation you're supposed to keep an open heart and allow yourself to receive love and kindness from yourself and then send it to the people you care about and even to those you don't know. After 3 minutes of this, a strange warm and fuzzy feeling sort of takes over and brings a sense of peace to your life. I swear. I don't think it's my imagination. It's utterly beautiful.

gosh I guess I've always known there was a hippy in me somewhere haha...

Seeing as so many other people around me have been faced with changes, transitions, and the unknown this year, it helps me remember that I'm not in this alone. I will remain brave, live free, enjoy my youth, and come out of this tunnel victorious and utterly happy.

oh and yes, I won't forget, treating myself to frozen yogurt now and then doesn't hurt either ;)

The simple things

I'm in the process of simplifying my life, finding myself, and trying to feel alive again. As emo as that sounds, it couldn't be closer to the truth. I wish I could spend more time snuggling with Burger and Derby. They make everything better =)

Taking a Leap of Faith

{training for my skydive (that never happened) on my 21st birthday}

{one of my favorite pictures with Derby}

Thank you all for your sweet comments in response to yesterday's post. I'm so glad to know I have such a strong support system during this challenging time in my life. To be honest, I've been completely overwhelmed physically, emotionally, and academically over the past few weeks, and the uncertainty of the future unfortunately heightens my anxiety to the Nth degree. My hope for this year is to be able to gather the courage to take a leap of faith in the right direction. Years ago, on my 21st birthday, I was supposed to go skydiving, and at the last moment right before I stepped onto the plane, it began to downpour- thunder, lightning, and all. So you see, I haven't had the chance to take that plunge yet.

Maybe I'm ready to do it now. Slowly but surely...

What are some ways you have taken a leap of faith in your lifetime? I'd love to hear them and be inspired =)

xoxo